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WTH is up with my eyes?!?!?

First Dog!

Please add this movie to your netflix queue!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOxvgshc-r0&feature=share

What the crap!

it's been almost 6 months since I last blogged...life is hectic what can I say. I think I spend most of my time online reading other peoples blogs mostly about adoption, special needs, teen pregnancy and of course derby. Oh well today is as good of a time as any...So lifes catch up is this..

I've been having lots of catch up time with my mom, sis and family. Which if you know me this is HUGE! What a blessing to be where we are today!

Jeff has gone back to work (part time) since being laid off from a church I never want to hear the name of and would still love to punch the pastor and his wife in the face for being the biggest hypocrites I know, (most christians are and I get that). I still need to learn that I have to high of expectations of people and I need to let that go! Working on it okay!

Jeff is also in school full time. Which then between working part time and school full time we no longer have much family time together. Oh did I all ready mention that Jeff broke his leg? Well his knee, back in Jan. It's been a long road but he's back to work and and is moving around fairly well these days.

Derby, after returning form my first injury in the fall I had a great almost three months of skating! Even traveled to Sac for a big scrimmage/tournament called Red Red. Basically a bunch of leagues get together to raise money for a non profit by mixing their players against various teams. It was a lot of fun and of course scary at the same time! Unfortunately 3 days before Christmas I got hurt while scrimmaging...I tore all the ligaments in my knee this time! I took a month off officially from skating and tried to ease my way back into it. Unfortunately for the second time in a row due to injury I was unable to tryout for a team...sigh...I began skating again in March and have been trying to rebuild my strength yet again. The league I skate with has switched things up a bit this year so getting on a team this season just may not happen...There is always January 2012!! In the meantime I am still skating and trying to improve my skills. I am also loving visiting practices at other leagues, some have been really challenging some have not. I just love to skate, always have and always will. Derby is just an extension of that childhood passion coming full circle and full contact!!

The kids! Are crazy and just as busy as ever, oh how I love them! Zoey is such a big girl! She love sot do everything by herself, from picking out her clothes, to putting them on, brushing her hair and teeth and putting her own shoes on, even if on the wrong feet she still must do it all her self. THe last few days have been challenging tho. I think she has been more tired then usual and she can't seem to stop eating, she must be growing! Speaking of growing Riley is!! He is growing in so many ways one of which he is so proud of is that he has grown an 1/2 inch since the fall. Okay that may not seem like a big deal but IT IS! Riley finishes preschool this friday, next year on to kindergarten, can't hardly wait! He has verbalized lately that he is scared to go which amazes me that not only does he know how he feels about it but he can tell me and we can work thru those feelings the next few months. I am stoked that he is out of school a month before Myles and as you may recall Zoey goes year round, for now that is. Riley and I are going to have 14 hours a week with just him and I, it's going to be really good for both us!! Myles is 7 going on 17! I think he thinks he is a grown up at times. he is still very kind hearted and extremely helpful with the other two kiddos but he tends to act more like a parent when conflict arises instead of a 7 year old. He has been doing really well at school and has been enjoying his class. All tho I am not the biggest fan of how our school teaches (lack of science, art, music pe etc) I have really appreciated the technology the kids are getting to use. My kid can't stop reading chapter books either! There are days when he will just bring the book with him where ever we go and will read at any given chance, even in the car, which unlike him would make me sick to my stomach!

Well as summer approaches I am not sure I am going to have much time to "blog" so here's to another wonderful six months of silence!

Day 17

Happy Birthday to my Dad! He would be 66 today! I sure do miss him.

Day 16

Today I am thankful for the program my kids attend on tuesday nights called AWANAS. The boys are both growing tremendously in their knowledge of the bible. Of course one day I would hope and love to see them as complete followers of Jesus in every aspect of their live's but alas I know they will need to make that decision for themselves. For now I will do my job as their parent to give them experiences that foster what our family values most. For more information about what AWANS is,

go here
http://awana.org/on/demandware.store/Sites-Awana-Site/default/Default-Start

Day 15

I am so thankful for my family. Jeff and I have been married over 8 years now and have been together for 9. We have three beautiful, and healthy children. We live in a beautiful town surrounded by many friends and family. We live a simple life really. We rarely travel or vacation, we don't have expensive things, we live in a small (sometimes it feels too small) but comfortable apt in a great area of town, our children go to decent schools. Neither one of us are working which has it's pros and cons. We will only discuss the pro's here today. The fact is my husband has been unemployed since May 2009 thats quite awhile. During this time our family has grown very close together. We are constantly together and supporting each other in each of our own adventures. Not many dads can say they get to take their children to and from school and after school activities on a daily basis. Of course jeff could have gotten a job anytime over the last year and a half but his job of being a dad in this season of our life was way more important. Don't get me wrong he was still working very hard going to school full time during this time. His schedule allowed him the time to be with his family more often then not. After working in ministry for a certain amount of time things can tend to slip with the nature of ministry outside the home. We are very grateful for this time our family has had together and as it is coming to a close we are mourning the loss of this season. Yes I did say close...details on changes coming soon. Today we are just thankful to be together.

Day 14

Lady and Lady's man Derby Prom 2010

I am thankful for my Derby Widow! Again I am guessing you are wondering what a Derby Widow is right?

I borrowed this for your reading enjoyment :)

A Roller Derby Widow’s Guide to the Grief Process

So, fellas, and some lucky ladies, your partner has joined the derby. You thought it would be fun for your woman to pick up a new sport, and now you sit in a house full of sexy hosiery wondering when you will see your partner again. This is a challenging time fraught with confusion and loneliness. Know that you are not alone. The mourning process is real. Every widow’s experience is unique, but you may recognise the following:

Denial – Many of us are ashamed to admit that early in the derby widow experience, it is actually exciting. Suddenly, it’s ok to watch a mass of women in short skirts plow into each other without turning off the internet browser filter. Your home is often filled with your wife’s hot, hilarious teammates. Your lover’s fitness is advancing at an astonishing rate, she’s taken over changing tyres, and she seems to have found an inexplicable comfort with firearms. When she drags you to the local all-night roller disco, you beam with pride at her skating skills.

Anger- It’s 9:30 p.m. and you haven’t seen Madamoiselle de Derby since yesterday. The house is littered with skates or wristguards that smell like week-old roadkill that previously subsisted on a diet of limburger. She’s spending all her time doing ‘tracking stats’, writing ‘line-ups’ or glued to some message board discussing the merits of taping make-up sponges to her blisters. Then, when you slump off to the pub to drown your sorrows with your mates, she rolls in two hours after you, red-faced and laughing about the ‘after party’.

Bargaining – You are a product of the modern age, no? You can handle this if she’ll just give in a bit. But your attempts to keep Wednesdays for ‘us’ time and coax her to take the summer hols somewhere where she can’t visit a local league just aren’t making it go away.

Sadness - You miss her. It’s common to experience ‘What if’ questions at this stage, like ‘What if I had just encouraged her to join something more delicate, like street fighting or kendo instead?’

Acceptance – Hard as it may be to understand this, you will eventually learn to embrace your roller derby girl. You may start to realise that your mates crowd around with anticipation to hear about the latest pile-up at practice, that when you finally watch a bout it feels like your first rock concert, or that you’ve tried on the referee stripes and have developed a taste of your own for the track. The women of the roller derby are a rare breed who will find the derby with or without you. All you can do is thank the derby goddesses above, and start on that sign for the next bout.